I’m a bit of a navel-gazer, that’s so true right. People often ask me how I am able to write so much, I tell them note most of my writing is about me, me, me, my life, my viewpoint on this and that, and so forth. I’ve been committed to personal growth for a while now and as I grow bit by bit I’ve come to see how self-centered and ego-bound I am. At one time it would have hurt me to even acknowledge this to myself, so even just writing this shows me how far I have come. (but still have far to go! note the self-congratulation LOL). I have decided that in 2009 I will reduce the navel-gazing. In order to broaden my horizons, I need to look up, feel me. I’m learning nothing new by navel-gazing, my growth is hampered by always being so focused on myself.
Other resolutions! go back to school and start my road to getting a doctorate. I’ve had so many people tell me how hard it is going to be, I am now terrified. but! I will ignore those people cause truthfully I think they are just haters and want to put fear and doubt in my head because of their own issues. I am going to tell people from now on, Don’t put that hard on me! I will be fine.
Lessen my shyness and try to talk to people more. I finally figured out my shyness is based on my slowness to establish or clarify my personal boundaries with people. So I have a hard time talking to people because part of me thinks they will invade my personal space. There are so many cool people in my area I want to meet and who want to meet me, but I’m so shy I get all weirdo around people often.
Exercise, exercise, exercise. It’s no longer a choice for me, it’s something I have to do for my health. Thank god there are so many activities I enjoy, like running and yoga and biking. I am working on changing my mindset to think of exercise as self-pampering
Money! My main money goal for 2009 is to pay all my bills on time. This is a huge mental block for me, HUGE. I think I can do it though, I have managed to close out 2008 without a single checking overdraft fee, which is HUGE for me. Also, save more money. I finally figured out that the money I will save on late fees means more money I can…save. ultra duh!
There are more, but I will stop (see navel-gazing above ha ha). What are your resolutions for 2009?
This blog entry written by Trula. Thanks for visiting Seed & Flame!


















